Well Christmas 2009 made me feel like a big adult. Playing Santa and having the weight of producing a good holiday will do that. I was suddenly the adult talking to other parents about Santa secrecy, mall visits, wrapping papers, hiding presents etc. It was strange and made me want to be a kid again...and have someone else work hard to make one day so special. I have to say, I felt the holiday "I have children to make this special for" burden. I think I did a good job. Next year I will do ever better.
Seeing Mom sick also makes me feel like an adult. It is strange to have a holiday where she doesn't feel good. A holiday where I bring more food down to her than she already has (you know Mom and her over-preparedness!) It was sad for me. It made me wish for a time when I was younger and still under my parents' care. But I am taking that feeling of love, security, and sentiment and reminding myself I can now re-create it for Drew and Ryan.
On a positive note, I had a cute little helper to keep me company while I wrapped presents!
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